Yes, life is a dance, that whole two steps forward one step back…sometimes one step forward two steps back. I get frustrated with myself on such occasions where my stumbling lands me back at a place I struggled to get out of. Recently I quit smoking, for what seemed like the 100th time (in reality it probably was my 10th really good one…meaning longer than 3 weeks with really good intentions of being DONE). Well, the last time I quit prior to this I went through quite the ordeal, the bad moods, the restless sleeps, the headaches and worst of all, the weight gain. I swore it would be my last time putting myself through it.
Now I’ve quit again, a month into it and I went through it all again, all for the non-pleasure of falling back into the trap for a mere month. It was a colossal waste of energy and time. Yes, I am proud that I made the choice to quit again, but I don’t want to spend my life fighting the same battles over and over again all because these battles are familiar and I know how to win them. I need next level business. I need a new view of life, this one has become dull. Going back to the gym to lose the same 5 lbs I’ve lost 100 times before, instead of moving towards a new level of fitness.
I am taking on new things this year, I am finding my way back towards the dreams I had before I learned to doubt myself. That requires NEW beliefs…I have become certain I know what is best for me, how to attain the goals I wish to achieve, now its time to put new plans into action. Now its time to do and be not want and need. Theres a saying “When you know better you do better”. Yes we are supposed to forgive ourselves for our mistakes, but the “moving on” requires that we learn from them and then MOVE ON…no more repetition for me…goodbye cigarettes, hello new and healthy body!