I am in the midst of change, though aren’t we all? Change, the one inevitability, the one thing we can count on. I figured out, if change will happen regardless, we may as well do it on purpose. My body will change whether or not I go to the gym, but if I apply effort to this equation, it can change for the better instead of for the worse (time, in some way serves us, in some ways, not so much).
I will outgrow my career (in some ways, most ways, I already have) so I can either get worn down by the repetitive nature of being unfulfilled or I can take steps to create a more suitable career that I can slowly merge with in the future. Either way, I will change, for the better or the worse. Either way I will not be the same person this time next year. It is up to me, and only me, if future me is happy or grown bitter. Whether I have renewed dreams, or I become disenchanted by the dreams I once had.
I have acquired, perhaps, the greatest gift I could have ever been given by life, 2015 taught me accountability. In my forties I am long past blaming parents, schools, and ex boyfriends for the pains that keep me from my pleasures. I can no longer blame ignorance for poor eating habits, or lack of knowledge when it comes to personal power in regards to my small but defeating addictions. I quit smoking because I can. Because we all can. It only requires believing in the personal power we all have access to.
I am now taking on fitness, grateful to my body for seeing me through so much, nourishing it so that it can sustain me for all the years to come, finally giving it the love it has always deserved.
I am embarking once more on a road that may or may not lead to greater things, unattached to the outcome, just thirsty for the experience to try again. I am in search of the adventures that life will only offer if I take the chances, put forth the efforts, and forego the instant gratification of things that detract from my longer term goals. (I was never very good at this, but am getting better now that I have lived long enough to have experienced the consequences of living for the now often at the expense of my future, totally not worth it).
So cheers to change, may it more often than not be the kind you desire, may you give it all the helping hands it needs to work within your favor. May we take accountability, if not the control we wish we had, to play a part in the way change can bless us, move us, and as a ripple effect, create a better future for all the lives we touch. “You must be the change you want to see in the world” – Mahatma Gandhi